Found a mobility scooter for cheap on the way home… was fun to take it around the neighborhood with the kids. I want to pimp it out lol

It’s nice to receive messages from my ex husband like this… I must be doing something right 🙂

It’s been a little over a year since we split, after a decade together.

He sees our kids about 10 weeks out of the year, so it is imperative that we maintain a good relationship for the sake of the kids… and mature adult communication is the key.

So weird to close this chapter of my life… it was a great learning experience.

I wish nothing but the best for him.

With love and only love.



And ye shall receive.

Got exactly what I asked for from 2018 🤷🏾‍♀️

2019, I love you! 😘


Mele Kalikimaka

I would wish Jesus a Happy Bornday, but we all know he wasn’t born in winter.

The winter solstice is worth celebrating though. Especially here in Hawai’i.

I was actually shocked to learn the history of Christmas, so I thought I would share it.

Makes you wonder how anyone would claim that it’s a Christian holiday.

History of Christmas 🎄

Merry Christmas.



I have scars, stretch marks, no hair, no lashes, no make up, no style, no care in the world… yet I have never felt so much confidence.

I have something that means more than anything. I have purpose.

I am waiting for Jesus. But I do enjoy being with someone… to cuddle with. It’s nice to feel human once in a while lol

2 year bet on myself, with myself.

I want to see what I’m capable of.

I want to amaze myself.

With love and only love,



Imagine our 40 days and 40 nights is 400 years of flooding from melted ice caps?

Just saying… what if because we commit so much sin against nature, god finally gives us the big “fuck you” again?

What if because we are the disease of the earth & it’s mother’s way of putting us in time out?

And the ones who survive remembers never to disrespect her again?

You’d think we would learn and read the signs already… history has a way of repeating itself.

But of course the evil don’t believe in eternity so they will burn everything down for momentary “happiness”, they won’t be here to suffer the consequences of their actions… or would they?

I’m crazy…

The Bible says heaven is here on earth. If you believe.

What if eternity is in us all along and we just have to believe?

I know… sounds crazy huh?

But what if?

The emerald tablet? “As above, so below, as within, so without”…

Basically “on earth as it is here in heaven”…

Everything is connected. All religions and all beliefs. They separate them to depreciate the value of its teachings as a whole. Think about it.

What’s the harm in believing in possibilities?


I could see a modern, not so far off, scientific way of it happening… with all these transplants and genetic engineering… it’s only a matter of time when we can transplant a human brain into another body… then we’ll be manufacturing bodies for brains to purchase.

It’s really NOT that crazy. They make ears and hearts etc NOW.

They can make a human body without a brain and just have it ready for a transfer.

Yes yes, the future has so many possibilities of eternity being reachable.

What if Jesus figured it out and some others did too, and they’re just watching us in shame waiting for some of us to wake the fuck up before it’s too late?

Those guys walk on water… a flood isn’t going to affect them lol

All I’m saying is, don’t discount my theory just because it’s crazy… and it’s only crazy because it’s not popular opinion… or anyone else’s opinion lol 😝

Look, we have an amazing world… and we could make our lives even more amazing just by making our world more amazing and it’s by making our neighbors’ lives more amazing.

Do something for someone… even the smallest of things… not sure where I’m going with this, but I believe we aren’t completely hopeless, not all of us.

We can do more for each other… than we are doing now.

Everyone of us knows someone who need some help. Whether it’s words of encouragement or a ride to work.

Or if you’re anti social like I am lol, speak up for someone who can’t. Speak up for the homeless, animals, seniors, handicaps, anyone who need someone to feel they’re not alone… why not?

Speak up for the children… the kids. They need us more than anything. If you see something just not right, call it the fuck out and be willing to take the blows from devils… in the end, they don’t win. They can’t. And YOU know you did right and THAT is godly.

God is watching… and he is real.

With love and only love… aloha


You can tell a lot about a man by the way he treats his wife and kids… How all women and children are treated says a lot about a country.

So here’s a question, why isn’t there a universal teaching for children to understand right touch from wrong touch?

Why don’t public school teach children what is considered wrong touching? They could save so many children who have no idea they’re being assaulted. I believe every single mom/parent/guardian who love their child(dren) could agree that there’s such thing as WRONG TOUCHING… can’t we come up with a way to teach that to our kids, and teach our teachers to identify who need to be rescued?

They don’t do this!? Why? We all know why… but what are we going to do about it?

I came to America as a 3 year old refugee… to parents in their 40s and 50s who didn’t speak English. I was the 2nd youngest out of 7 kids… I was outgoing and cute… I was a prime target to be conditioned for sexual assault by men who were in positions of trust, mainly doctors… those fuckers are the worst.

Once when I was a teen, I was assaulted by a long time male friend, my best friend at the time was a lot more upset than I was… she wanted to get her dad to confront our “friend”… I told her it was no big deal because it didn’t hurt. I was used to being kissed and touched… I thought that was just normal behavior. It was the first time I experience someone being upset about me being assaulted, it was the first time I was told it was wrong and it was not okay.

As a child, when I told my mom about the kissing and touching, she told me to not wear shorts and tee shirt anymore. She wasn’t taught any better.

Now as a mom to 2 boys and a girl, I realized all the things that happened to me that I just brushed aside was NEVER okay…

I know I have to do better… I have to teach better and help them understand better.

Prepping myself for hard questions as they come up… I need to ensure my answers encourage my children to have open minds and open hearts, but be smart enough to protect themselves.

I use to question why I was highly sexed, always wondered why my mind was always in the gutter… I use to think maybe I’m really a dude trapped inside a little girl’s body lol… I just now realized I was conditioned for it.

I can joke about it now… kind of… no not really… I’m not as scarred by the past anymore… but trust me, it was NOT an easy climb up… lots of unexplained break downs and tears, destruction of relationships over the years.

I know for a fact I didn’t have it at all near as bad as some of the kids I knew growing up. My heart breaks for them… my heart breaks for all children.

So how do we prevent all this useless horrifying life threatening harm in the future? How the future turns out depends on how we treat our children… What we teach them. So how is there not a universal teaching already?!

We have to do better.

Theres a reason for our existence. There’s a reason why we know what we know… we should find out that reason.

It’s a peculiar thing for information to be kept from you, the public… but the most baffling thing is knowing there’s information out there, and having zero desire to find it. How are you happy with just existing?

Yet the worst offense ever is KNOWING the info and doing absolutely nothing about it.

What are you capable of? Definitely more than what you’re doing now, that’s for sure… what compels you?

That’s where we fall short as humans, we forget about humankind.

We tend to be selfish with our lives, living it for just our superficial self experience… when we realize we are part of something so much bigger, we start to care more about our actions… or lack there of.

What a difference half a decade can make.

Funny thing is, I found God through the bible teachings and connecting it with modern science.

Religious leaders will tell you NOT to believe in astrology and mock and make fun of other teachings… but yet won’t make the connection in the bible about those three wise men and the star of Bethlehem… those dudes use astrology to find Jesus… HELLO?! These idiots act as if they KNOW all the answers to the bible and the TRUE word of God.

There’s so much information they are distorting and keeping from us. A half truth is equivalent to a lie.

It’s like the government lying to us about marijuana… God’s magical medicine.

It’s for control. God is all things good. All things good means all possibilities without limitations. God is limitless.

Yes it’s a little scary to view God differently than what we are taught.

Truth can be scary… and sadly it’s never free. Someone will have to pay the price for it, but once it’s paid, it’s free for the rest of us.

Truth be told, I’m scared as fuck. Now that I KNOW God is real, I can’t go back to being oblivious and live selfishly. Ignorance is bliss? Maybe.

But I rather know for sure. Wouldn’t you? Am I really THAT weird? I can’t be the only one… seriously. lol

With love and only love,



I’ll dance to any music, from rap to reggae, country, hip hop, polka, just about anything. I love to dance… Am I any good? That’s debatable lol

But I still do it anyways.

I find myself enjoying being alone more and more. I don’t have any need to be with a partner… and it’s one of the most freeing feelings in the world, to depend on myself. To be with myself.

I’m focused.

Every step I take going forward will be all in the Lord’s name.

With God on my side, we will clean the world of this unholiness one soap box at a time lol I’m dead serious

God is real. The church is a fraud. So are religious “leaders”. They’re suppose to help guide you, not direct you.

That’s where they get confused with their power. We give it to them, and they abuse it, they abuse us. Stop giving them power.

Why are they worshipped? Fuck them. God before any church. God before any man. God before anything or anyone. As it should be.

Don’t let these religious frauds tell you you’re not worthy of God’s love if you don’t love God the way they tell you to.

Your relationship with God is private and it’s between you and God. Fuck the church.

Don’t let idiots tell you that you must attend their cult once a week in order to get your message to the lord. Fuck the church.

It’s time for a new start. God deserves better. And so do we.

With love and only love,



I’m never bored when I’m alone…

I enjoy meself way too much lol

With love, and only love…



We spend so much time trying to impress others, but hardly any time trying to impress ourselves.

This was my first year being single as an adult…  I’ve learned to work new muscles I didn’t know existed. At first it ached, and I was scared of the exercise. But now I’m beyond excited to see what comes of it.

I notice that as I get older (and wiser), I cycle through my emotions a lot quicker than I did when I was younger. I’m able to get up a lot quicker. Dust myself off and try again.

Impressing others is easy… most people are easily impressed. But impressing yourself? That shit is hard. Because only you know for sure if you tried your best. If you gave it your all or not… and if you’re honest with yourself, you’ll realize how hard it is to truly impress yourself, lol… at least for me anyways.

I do impress myself sometimes, when I work with my hands and create things that were in my mind quickly… I got blessed to grow up with my dad being a carpenter and my brothers binge watching This Old House.

Granted it’s not high quality wood work lol, but I’m pretty damn happy about it.

I was driving behind someone on a moped the other day going 20 mph on the 35mph road… and I was actually saying to myself how SLOW this person was… but not in a complaining type of way, just an observation.

Then it occurred to me what others must felt behind me when I drove mine for the first time… I was going 5mph for 11 miles… lol TRUST ME, people were NOT happy, and it was during rush hour too.

Made me realize what my mom told me as a child that stuck with me… She says “people are able to see the mud on other people’s back, but never their own”

Those who are smart enough to get multiple mirrors so they can see the mud on their own backs, will prosper in life.

The past few months I’ve been realizing about all the mud on my back that I’ve never noticed… and I just wanted to crawl under a rock and hide from the world out of embarrassment! lol

But I realize, you can never grow without sunlight… and I need to accept that’s not who I am NOW… that bitch was WHACK! lol SOOOOOOooOoOooOoo embarrassing!

Crazy is one thing… but THAT? That was just UGH!!! lol I can’t deal!

lol, Okay I got to get back on it… I have a lot on my plate… lucky for me, I’m hungry.



Could anyone think we’re not all related somehow? Like, how are people still THAT stupid?

My 10 year old son and I are very close… well, I’m close with all my kids. But today we were talking about his Roblox character and he says “you don’t look like a real Asian”… which of course I get what he means, by what is represented in media.

I asked him to describe what does an Asian look like to him… and he said the stereotype of slanted eyes… which I asked him if he considered Indians to be Asian?

He says of course. And it clicked to him that half of the Asian population are dark skinned people with huge eyes. Then he acknowledged that I do look like a real Asian, just not the Asian they talk about.

They don’t talk about the people in the southeast Asian region. There’s a lot of mix people there. Indian, African, Chinese and even French heritage. You can’t expect us to have a certain type of look.

We’re all related. We have connections to each other. That’s why racism is just so weird to me… like with today’s access to information, how the fuck are you still stupid? 🤷🏾‍♀️

This is my Khmer appreciation post. I love my people and my culture. After all we’ve been through, we still manage to find happiness.

It’s a choice. Like love.

Aloha aloha ALOHA

With love and only love,


Love on the brain

I haven’t worn a bra since my teens. I didn’t need support everyday, just on my period days… so there was no point, lol actually there were 2 points 😂

I’m glad I didn’t listen to everyone else.

I’ve only completed 8th grade.

My 10 year old has better grammar than I do. He’s been homeschool at least half the year for every year. This year it’s entirely homeschool.

I realize what takes the school to teach my son in a year, I can teach him in 2 weeks. Like a crash course.

Example is his reading. Entering 3rd grade we were told he’s behind by a year on reading. Now he’s reading, comprehending and his grammar is of a freshman in high school.

Lol it’s funny he says he thought someone was younger than him on Roblox because they had bad grammar. The kid was 14.

He now knows how to code games also. And is living a happy stress free life.

YOU are the most important person in your child’s life. It is YOUR responsibility to raise your child. Not the school.

But it takes a village to raise a child. Let alone children. I am blessed to have my mom. And some amazing nannies who are still a part of my kids life.

School need to change ASAP.

My 10 year old don’t need to learn history that constantly changes as we figure new information out. Shit I was told Columbus discovered America and Pluto was a planet.

Our schools need to focus on the important things that make the world a better place.

I want schools to teach compassion, understanding, empathy, teach kindness and patience.

I believe children have a natural love. And because of forced behavior (to sit still in a room at 6am?? Wtf is That??), we are asking them to fight amongst each other to be teachers pet.

Or who gets that scholarship. Or who gets that job? Really? Wtf? Why are we wanting this for our future??

To teach them to tear each other down for something that should be more than abundant? Really?

Competition is great. But without the right guidance, it can turn into bullying, or even worse. There’s a whole spectrum of possibilities. Because we don’t equip our kids with proper adults to guide. They don’t teach the emotional/spiritual side of growing up. And raising children, it’s more important than just remember shit to pass a test.

These “teachers” don’t exist as much anymore. The ones who do it for the love… still. There are some. But even they don’t have the right tools. They’ve been begging for it. And we just need to continue to use our public funding to fund private prisons and wars.

Because supposedly that’s doing the public a favor right? Isn’t that evil?

Playing god

We need to stop worshipping the devil.

It is time to turn back to God. To nature.

God would not support what is being done right now. And oddly, no one is talking about it still.

God has left. It’s not Democrat or Republican. That’s just a game they use to turn us against each other.

Love is love. It has no sides.

The idea that one man is valued more at birth is absurd. And that is what they continue to teach us by putting us in the system.

The loop.

We are born.

We enter the loop at 5.

We obey/disobey

We are rewarded/ punished

We die.

They want us to focus on kneeling, what celebrities are doing, Donald trump… while they kill innocent children because they are different and lock our brothers, fathers and sons up.

It’s about the evil that exist in this world. And our contribution to it by being silent. Our contribution by putting our children through it. To be one day ready to die for something that wasn’t even worth living for in the first place.

What do you live for?

Why bother living if there’s nothing worth dying for? Your life would be meaningless.

Life isn’t really worth living if truth can’t be free.

Die for truth. It sucks.

The greatest do.


They all did 😳

The evil is within

God need to make a comeback… soon.


Real love

Couldn’t ask for a better sissy…

My tubes are tied…

I realize most of the people who call successful people lucky use their free time to play games, drink uselessly or aimlessly spend time on social media.

I am not a princess.

Early on in our relationship, my ex husband asked if I wanted to be treated like a princess or a queen? And I looked at him and said “the fucking King” 🤷🏾‍♀️

Gained 8 lbs

8 more to go…

And a whole lot of love…

And only love,


Be Humble

Be stubborn. Be humbly stubborn.

If it makes you happy, and no one is harmed, be stubborn as Fuck. Magic is real. It is… and science proves it exist.

Not only that, just look at nature!

Jelly fish that can be immortal? Hello? Animals living for hundreds of years? Everything on this rock obtaining energy from our super star, the sun?? That’s all magic. Don’t let people who don’t know shit tell you it’s not real.

If you do a quick study of human history, THEY Have been telling us, forcing us, to believe in the WRONG things.

Science have proven so many stupid shit that stupid people use to believe… Now science can be use to prove God exist. The bullshit religious leaders tells us that God is some man in the sky granting wishes to those who believe in him… that’s simply not true, it kind of is… lol but it’s more deep than that, but yet so simple.

It’s an energy source. They apply the pronouns “he” and “him” so people back then can understand it more and therefore relate to it. Then they force you to believe their ways or else…

Or else what? NUFFIN. NOT A DAMN THING. All they do is lie to us to control us.

You don’t need to go to church to believe in God. You don’t need to belong to any religious groups to believe in God. Jesus is real. Allah is real. There’s a bunch of real people with some real knowledge trying to spread it… but assholes end up misinterpreting it for their own sinister benefits.

I don’t have all the answers to everything… and I won’t claim that I do. But I do know that I’m finding more and more proof that God exist just by digging more into the science of energy.

How could all these people say God don’t exist, but have zero idea on what God truly is? If you don’t know what it is, how could you be so sure?

God came before religions. God came before the churches. The bibles. Before the men in their silly costumes… God has always been and always will be.

I believe the next big thing in human discovery will be the power in us. Not just some self belief that everything will be great… but the belief that you are divine.

Be humbly divine.

Don’t discount me just because I’m crazy. Discount me if I’m wrong… but I’m not.

With love and only love and a little weed lol




I’m the type of woman to round up my age, my weight… And my future.

Was told by my cuddle buddy that I’m weird because I actually believe in myself.

I honestly do. And I encourage everyone around me to do the same. Why not?

You can be your own super hero…

Everything happens for you… I swear they do. Legit. EVERYTHING. The sun shines everyday for you… if you weren’t here, it wouldn’t exist. Your life matters, magic is real, combine the two with love and only love.



I don’t attend church… in fact, I’m anti church. God came way before the church ever did… and I doubt Jesus and his peeps attended church. They attend group gatherings and learn about the new ways and teachings… but they didn’t worship some dude in a funny costume and hat, while he & his friends steals your money and rape your kids… Fuck the church. FUCK THEM. God is real without the Church.

God is LOVING energy… and loving energy doesn’t fucking rape children. FUCK THE GOD DAMN CHURCH. Aloha

I say this with Love and only love,



It’s a strange thing to fall out of love… sure you’ll fall in love again, but the journey there will never be the same… and the results could be even more spectacular.


Signed by my momma. Aloha

Booed up

I started this new venture to show that it could be done easily… and it’s actually doing a lot better than I expect… so I’m focusing all my attention on this new project, and putting my H&H on hold until the next year.

It’s great to see your ideas come to life… but one of the most amazing feelings in the world is to see a lot of people loving it.

Creative energy… it’s an awesome gift. Don’t lose it.

The trick is to NEVER grow up… lol you honestly don’t need to.

I threw a bunch of spaghetti on the wall and this one stuck very well. I can’t wait to play.



What does normal feel like?

I’ve fallen, and I’m going to make the most of it while I’m down here.