We spend so much time trying to impress others, but hardly any time trying to impress ourselves.

This was my first year being single as an adult…  I’ve learned to work new muscles I didn’t know existed. At first it ached, and I was scared of the exercise. But now I’m beyond excited to see what comes of it.

I notice that as I get older (and wiser), I cycle through my emotions a lot quicker than I did when I was younger. I’m able to get up a lot quicker. Dust myself off and try again.

Impressing others is easy… most people are easily impressed. But impressing yourself? That shit is hard. Because only you know for sure if you tried your best. If you gave it your all or not… and if you’re honest with yourself, you’ll realize how hard it is to truly impress yourself, lol… at least for me anyways.

I do impress myself sometimes, when I work with my hands and create things that were in my mind quickly… I got blessed to grow up with my dad being a carpenter and my brothers binge watching This Old House.

Granted it’s not high quality wood work lol, but I’m pretty damn happy about it.

I was driving behind someone on a moped the other day going 20 mph on the 35mph road… and I was actually saying to myself how SLOW this person was… but not in a complaining type of way, just an observation.

Then it occurred to me what others must felt behind me when I drove mine for the first time… I was going 5mph for 11 miles… lol TRUST ME, people were NOT happy, and it was during rush hour too.

Made me realize what my mom told me as a child that stuck with me… She says “people are able to see the mud on other people’s back, but never their own”

Those who are smart enough to get multiple mirrors so they can see the mud on their own backs, will prosper in life.

The past few months I’ve been realizing about all the mud on my back that I’ve never noticed… and I just wanted to crawl under a rock and hide from the world out of embarrassment! lol

But I realize, you can never grow without sunlight… and I need to accept that’s not who I am NOW… that bitch was WHACK! lol SOOOOOOooOoOooOoo embarrassing!

Crazy is one thing… but THAT? That was just UGH!!! lol I can’t deal!

lol, Okay I got to get back on it… I have a lot on my plate… lucky for me, I’m hungry.